Lately I’ve been thinking …
I let you into my head,
into my heart,
and that’s a privilege.
I’ve been pushing hard to open up the door,
trying to take us to back to where we were before,
but it hurts when we can’t see eye to eye.
I don’t know where to start or where to stop.
I’ll always remember how we came close.
You’ve been wonderful in all that you can be.
No, but I know I’m done.
We’ve been walking around in circles for some time,
and I think we should head for the finish line.
It’s like we can’t be mended,
so let’s stop pretending now.
I need to let you go.
They say it’s what you make,
I say it’s up to fate.
So fall out of my head,
out of my heart.
You’ll be sorry when I’m not around,
But I will watch you while you fall out of your mind.
"A friend; comes and goes. A best friend; understands deep under your skin and stays through but a soul friend sees everything in you and stays on throughout there and then despite endless tidals in the friendship."
Meet my sahabat, my bff 💕👆😊
I miss the days my mind would just rest quiet.
I remembered someone asked “You’ve been so strong, why crumble now?”
I remembered how tears were forcing out through my glands,
I remembered how both hands lifted in an instant covering my face,
And then I thought …
There was a war inside my heart,
both sides dissatisfied and somewhat violent.
Softly whispering I don’t care, walk away whatever.
But who am I kidding,
I knew there were missing pieces.
Found I wans’t so tough,
and felt the fault was all mine.
Forgiving wasn’t enough to make it all okay,
because you can’t play on broken strings.
I want to disappear and just start over.
I thank God for keeping my head above the water,
when the truth was like swallowing sand.
It wasn’t long before I picked myself back up,
and decide flight or fight,
then slowly putting one foot in front of the other.
Maybe tomorrow won’t be this hard,
the sun would shine brighter in daylight,
the moon would blind on late nights.
Just put my brave cape on and
not let anything take away what’s standing in front of me.
And counting back the hours someone told me,
"It’s hard to accept but that’s all we need. He plans and decides better."
I guess that’s life regardless of what is thrown,
even if it hurts so much you feel like giving up,
Be strong, it can’t rain forever.
Fight through, that’s when you uncover.
This is not the end though.
You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out form difficult and tight spots when they really need you.
One day I’ll find an answer to everything.
Looking back, I almost forgot how it felt to be truly happy.
Like I was too absorbed in my life.
Like I was made to hear bad news talking this and that.
Like I was not afraid to get myself hurt, over and over again.
I (secretly)wish for a time machine, capable of transporting me backward in time.
Only then, I would remember how I lifted my hands to supress my contagious laughter.
How I lifted my legs off the ground with confidence that I’ll win for swinging the highest.
How I lifted my two tiny feet, carefully articulating every dance move, sweeping across the stage and receiving generous applause from the
Oh, how I …
And today as I reached the jar to open my last note, it says “Make great memories.”
I started to contemplate but I guess I shouldn’t ask myself too much.
If only it was that simple and then I thought, hard is what makes it great.
Taking everything in hand with a smile isn’t at all easy, I feel suffocated.
I honestly need a breather but for now, I should keep moving forward
because that’s how winning is done.